i was alone.

hay. today made me quite sad.

supposedly, me and mushroom together with jorge are assigned to attend a seminar.

but then, i was left alone. if sarah was not able to go too, it would be only me who would be there.

i texted both jorge and mushroom, where are they na? but no one replied.

well, jorge replied but it was too late, it is already at the middle of the seminar, so it's no use, if he still come. and well, mushroom didnt even send me one text. atleast just tell me that he wont make it. atleast i didnt expect that we would be coming.

well, today made me realize that, he just dont care if im alone or not. and that i should not bother to wait anymore for him. just a single text would do, but then, he still didnt send one.

well, i guess it would be time to stop waiting for him. that no matter what i do, i wont be a part of him, or he wont notice and be concerned with me. :((

by the way, in the first weeks of our class, i was happy. why? because, we're seatmates. we seat close to one another. no between us. i thought that would be the start of our friendship, but then, i never fail to disappoint myself. hay. :(

--sakuralove :(

a day with mushroom. :)

june 8, 2011

wednesday

i had so much fun with you today. we are in the same room playing and orienting the first years. :)

i dont know but im happy. i dont feel anything else. i just really wanted to be your friend. i hope you feel the same way.

today, we leaned on the same wall. together with jorge. watching the videos presented by the speakers. and yet jorge keeps on leaving both of us alone. i was happy. i really wanted to talk to you that time. have a friendly conversation. yet, i still cant. no words came out of my mouth. and realize we still cant be friends.

but still i had fun with you there. touring around the school with you and the others, it feels like we are both touring together. haha.

i hope next time, we can talk to each other casually. let's be open with each other and be friends. :) we are running out of time. we are almost in the half of 5 years being together.

i was planning can we have a whole semester of letters? writing to each other everyday.

--sakuralove :) ♥